In the blink of an eye

Have you ever been warned to enjoy your youth because in the blink of an eye your youth will be gone?
Well I had many times. I found myself going along, always being told I was too young, and as I aged, compared to my family and friends I was still the young one, the little sister type.
I would have done anything to age, in every birthday card my sister would write " Now you can say your..." and would write an age older then I was turning.

Until this year... I was going along feeling too young, not ready for anything, and then one night I went to sleep and everything changed. I woke up and I was 25! I was getting told I had wrinkles, or if checking out a guy I would be told he was only 21,and too young for me. Getting asked by people of all ages if I was older then my sister. (who by they way is seven years older then myself)
A student at the school I work in thought I was too old to have kids!! That cut like a knife to the heart, and on and on the comments come... some I know are just out of teasing and I must admit funny. But when you keep hearing the same thing long enough, you start to believe it.

What if I've become so old that the only men who are interested in dating me are geophysicists, and they are only interested in carbon dating? (another great comment that came my way?)

Do you think you have a time frame in life where you are the best you're ever going to be? I feel I just missed my mark?

I went as far as a sad attempted today and looked up mail order grooms, just to make sure I had a back up if I came to need one... I found I was under qualified for even a desperate man.

So the next question I asked myself was..."Is this it? Was I meant to be single? Was this God's plan for my life? And if so then why have I longed my whole life to be married?" After all marriage won't solve my problems maybe add to them... And the answer I got.... nothing.

The whole world is looking for love, to the point we will sell out on love and marry a strange, marry for money, for a companion.
Just so we won't have to go places alone, or be the third wheel in a group of friends, be the one who goes looking like a mad woman to find someone to fill the 'and guest' spot.

As time goes by the men get fewer, the desperation more and the hope dwindles...
I hate the 'you're still young you'll find someone' line. If 25 years have past without on single option and I have moved away, to find the competition more and the amount of men less... you're left to think things will now only happen if you have some Devine intervention, because if you hit the online dating now, you maybe waisting a good ten more year.

How is it one day your young, the next you're mid-twenties, and the next you wake up 60 and had wished my life away? Why can't I be happy single?
There's a reason for it, if only I could get past the dumb questions the world throws my way... "Why don't you have a man?" (yes, it's fully my choice... ha!) "Are you gay?" (no, and it seems they have more luck then I do these days) "You must be picky!" ( your right! I don't want a man who will cheat on me, or not a Chirstian).

In a blink of an eye, time disappered, and age crept in to stay.