Out of the Ordinary


Today I'm having one of those blah days that makes you think about life and what you wanted to be when you grow-up.
The question teachers ask in school that haunts you for the rest of your life, the qustion you look back to and see that you never made it or you became something better.
This weekend I saw my old youth pastor that I haven't seen in eight years, and he asked me what I was up to, I guess that is what started me thinking today.
I know this makes me sound full of myself but I always thought I was going to become something out of the ordinary, I was going to have this great job, be a wife and mother and I dreamed that in a way everything I touched would turn to gold.
I built my dreams so high I guess there was only one way for them to go and that was down, I seem to look around at my family/friends and there amazing talents and feel like I could never hit the mark. I hate having these thought but they come anyway, I know were they come from, however .....BLAH

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Will you be my Valentine?



Last night I went out with a friend who's valentines date stood her up, so we head to Boston Pizza ( her choice not mine).
We had a good time talking and having other friends join us, I really enjoyed Valentines ( in fact I woke up loving the day and happy I was single.)

Well after a while of talking this group of guys walked in and sat at the table next to us, they kept looking at our table but we ignored them, about 45 minutes later one of the guys asked me to borrow a pen I was just using so I pass it over, and thought nothing of it.
After about another 10 minutes one of them comes back over to the table and gives me the pen back and then produces a paper heart that he had taken of the wall. He had scribbled off the name that was on it and put his name and phone number ( which I didn't see until after they left the building, I never looked at the heart before they walked out).
He hands me the heart and says " would you be my Valentines" I smiled a little hesitantly, " what do you want if I said yes" ( not sure what his move was) with all his friends looking on he says " just a hug". My friend pipes up "I think she could do that for you" ( he wasn't drunk and he was rather good looking). " So will you be my Valentine?" he asked again, I answer that I would love to and get up to give him a hug. He gave me this hugh smile and walks back to his table, one of his friends pats him on the back and rather loudly says "she cute and had a nice smile".
That was it I went back to talking to the people I was with, and then they left. I was so shocked.. for I think that the two girls I was with are much better looking then myself. ( plus I was just getting over the flu)
Needless to say it was corny but sweet and made my day, small this seem to amuse me.

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Praise God Anyway

Yesterday I was so upset! my car died and I felt like a small part of my heart was riped out and stomped on. I think the hard part is that this was my first car, my first big purches in life. How this one big story begins was my friend called me up to come over for dinner and a movie at five.

So I'm headed to her place and am waiting at a red light here in town, the car behind me keeps honking his horn.
I think to myself why is he honking? I'm in the turning lane and I don't know him, so I have no clue why he keeps honking. I turn in my seat and give him a smile and the guy then jumps out of his car and comes to my passanger door, yelling at me through the window that my frount right trie is flat.
Great just great!
I bought the car for 3500 dollars, in two years it had cost me 4000 dollars in repairs and now there is another cost problem. I just didn't want this!!
I have an eye infection so I look like crap and I'm not feeling well, all I wanted to do was go to my friends and have a good evening, not have to be seen around town.

So I head across the road to the gas station, call home and wait for my dad to come help me. He filled up my tire enough to get me to O.K. tire down the road, they were about to close but nicely took me in. ( I think to myself this is going to set me back around a hundred dollars for the new tire and work, and I am going to be late for dinner but its just a small set back . It's all going to be O.K.)
The people couldn't find anything wrong with the tire and don't know why it was leaking or how. So they put my tire back on and this all this just cost me time, for my dad was nice and paid the twenty dollars ( since I am right now out of work).

I say good bye to my dad and try again to get to this dinner.

I make it to a stop sign, ( not three feet from the store) start to head across the road and my driving wheele begins to freeze up, my oil light and battery light come on, then my car altogether dies, lucky for me I am able to pull off the road, into a parking spot side ways before she died fully.
Hoping my dad was almost home, I call again... almost laughing at my bad luck and crying too.
Trying to get together anything of value to take with me, I hear my mom tell me my dad was still out and she would try to get hold of one of my brothers that was driving around town.

The weather outside is freezing, and I have no heat in my car for I can't get it running and then to add salt to my open wound, my period starts... the one time I ware tan pants or anything not black ( sorry to any guy reading this) .
So I'm sitting there cold, emotional, out of a 7500 dollar car, hungy, a sore infected eye, and I just quit my job a month ago.... I was just wanting to have a fun night at a friend!!

After ten minutes my brother shows up to get me and tells me I have to go home and call a tow- truck, I can't just leave my car sitting there.

Three hours later I get to my friends house, but like my mum kept telling me last night: "Praise God anyway"

So I need to say; I'm thank-ful for the man who got out of his car to tell me, for living in a small town with family to come and help me, for having a car for two years, and that it all wasn't worse.