Out of the Ordinary


Today I'm having one of those blah days that makes you think about life and what you wanted to be when you grow-up.
The question teachers ask in school that haunts you for the rest of your life, the qustion you look back to and see that you never made it or you became something better.
This weekend I saw my old youth pastor that I haven't seen in eight years, and he asked me what I was up to, I guess that is what started me thinking today.
I know this makes me sound full of myself but I always thought I was going to become something out of the ordinary, I was going to have this great job, be a wife and mother and I dreamed that in a way everything I touched would turn to gold.
I built my dreams so high I guess there was only one way for them to go and that was down, I seem to look around at my family/friends and there amazing talents and feel like I could never hit the mark. I hate having these thought but they come anyway, I know were they come from, however .....BLAH