If I can't quit I can't be fired

So yesterday I finally handed in my notice, ( I need to add I do make one fine two weeks notice letter) I have work at Boston Pizza, Cold lake for a year and a half. I have always tried to be half an hour early and come in on days off if ever they need me, stay late, ect..
Well I finally was tired of being everyones chew toy " Joy can do it,what else will she do? she doesn't go to the bar", after a bad panic attack on friday night I realized my life was based on my job and not my job a part of my life.
My friends had stopped calling, for they were tired of getting " sorry joys at work." My family goes on last minute trips that I can never join, for I need to give two weeks notice if needing days off. ( I know most jobs are like that) Working hoildays when everyone was up, compensating by staying up late and then waking up well they are all still in bed.

So Monday morning I handed in my notice, only to have the owner come out a moment later asking me to join her in the office. " Why do you want to leave? Do you have another job? Are you just trying for more money? You can't leave, you are one of my best! I never have a bad word said about you, everyone loves you! I hear only good things about you from customer and worker alike, so why do you want to go?"
So I just laid it out for her, I don't care about money ( I have never tried to make money my life, as long as I can live one day to the next) I'm just tired. Six days a week of serving with maple flag on was getting to be to much, having moody managers that favor one server over another ( who there are friends with ). Knowing I'll do the drity work so they pick on me over the others, sexual harassment ( from workers and customers), ect..
In the end she talked me into staying on, four days a week ( I should have not said I didn't care about the money, my mom told me and she most likely would have given me a raise, and I know she would have...BUT I DON'T CARE!) I can pick the days I want to work each monday... lets see how long that lasts. I might be back to sixs days in no time, why can't I just say no!!!
I did realize today no matter what I do she wouldn't fire me, but everyone knows I'm a Christian so I shouldn't try.

I better get on Jimmy kimmel soon.

Jimmy Kimmel Live


Tonight I was talking with Janet about life and the goals we make for life. I told her my only life goal at this moment was to be on the Jimmy Kimmel show. Why he would have me on his show or what I could bring to the show is vague, but I will know when the time is right.
Otherwise I will just have to go with my life goal of being a gypsie, going from one country to the next, working only when I need money and living life to the fullest. ( I think the church calls gypsie, missionaries. But I won't be working for the church)
There we go that could be my job for kimmel, I could be his traveling gypsie!
He could pay for my flights and where I stay and in return... I do something out there and stupid to bring in the ratings ( not that he needs help with ratings.... but this is my dream).

There you go Janet, nothing great but I didn't know how to put my dreams into writing.

Defeated

I open my eyes and all around the sky is dark and grey,
my coffees cold, my hair just droops and then I start my day.
I was asked out to lunch, then they made other plans.
I eat alone, I work again, the hours slowly pass .
I close my eyes and all around the sky is dark and grey.
Defeated was my attitude and so defeated was my day.

How to lose a date in three days

1) Say yes to date number two ( he was not a flagger), he will get hernia and have to go back home. ( From the yes to the time he left, three days)

2) Number three will be a great guy ( until you find he is married, then you just laugh off the asking as if it were a joke . He also was not a flagger but also not from here ) However we did have a great talk about faith,God, family, trust and so on... maybe that is why I met him.

3) Date number one, just never worked out yet. ( He still says it will happen and I just don't care)

I could almost write a book if this keeps up... What is going on lately?

Note: still haven't dated and I don't care if I do or not anymore

Here is the before and afters, dark hair before and the bad blonde job after. You can't see that well by the pictures, but it's really blochy. I did fix it but now it's red and I not the best.

Regret


Today I did something stupid.... I dyed my hair blonde. Grace and I started the project at 2:30pm and just now finished at 10pm. We took two go's, the first trying to highlight my hair ( turned out so badly... I cryed) and the second time did the whole head.
Not bad but on sunday I will dye it again, as of now I am strawberry blonde with bright blonde highlights. Why is it, when my hair is good I just have to play with it hoping for something that's Wow! and instead get something small town. I always try to play with God's handy work and make such a mess of it in the end.
I can't say I won't try going blonde again, unless I know what's good for me.

Cinderella Story


I said it before and I'll say it again, I change like a fiddle changes it's tune.
I thank you all for your comments on the last blog, it shows people care and only want what is best for me.
When Jon asked me out, for a day or two I was living in a fairy tale. A good looking guy was wanting to take me out! How could I not be over joyed? I am 23 this year and never dated , never asked out and then Jon comes along and makes me feel pretty and wants to be nice and take me on a date. So I wrote Janet and then I had to redeem myself, for people who read Janets blog by writting my own and then it just seemed to make this run from there.

Note; if this isn't making sense I'm sorry.

He just wants to take me out... I guess, as... an act of kindness ( I have heard other things as to why he wants to take me out. But I don't believe they are true)
What I guess I'm saying is that, like Cinderella, my time has hit 12 and my horses are turning back into mice and my ride into a punkin. But like Cinderella it was a nice time to have. None of you have to worry, that I was going to hurt his feelings........ I wouldn't have.
We still have this so called "date" to go on... but we would never be "dating" to set this whole matter stright ( sorry if I have miss lead, we both don't want to be dating and working together).
I just got stuck in a moment, I now I have to get out of it.

It's Out

I left a comment on Janets blog the other day not thinking ( yes, I sould have e-mailed).
So here it is.... I was asked out last night by this new guy I work with. He is 25, french ( not t0o sure about that) works on base and started at Boston Pizza for a little more cash. The biggest flirt I have ever met! So last night after work I was having dinner with another girl and jon asked me what my last boyfriend was like. My friend pipes up and tells him " Joy has never dated", He starts to laugh " A beautiful woman like Joy never dated, I don't believe you" So he goes around asking the other people at work and they all said the same thing . So Jon says " If that is the case, I want to have the honor and be her first date".
And that is the story..

Note : he is devorced and not a Christian ( but then what is one date, he said he would pay for everything)